![]() ![]() Naipaul: ‘The world is what it is men who are nothing, who allow themselves to become nothing, have no place in it.’ He presented it, in fact, as an existential imperative, ceaselessly quoting V. ![]() ![]() My first friend and early protector, he not only introduced me to you he also encouraged me to pursue you, before so violently and inextricably knotting all our destinies together.Īseem, who saw himself as a mascot of triumphant self-invention, loved initiating his friends into his dream of power and glory. I am sure I’ll fall into the wrong tone, and risk provoking your disgust and anger but I must speak, too, of Aseem. That’s how I used to lull myself to sleep as a child and if I feel compelled to speak to you of those times, and to pick out of the past those scraps you overlooked in your own book, and unearth memories that I long suppressed, it is because they foreshadowed everything that happened between us. I am asleep before my body comes to rest on the messy floor of the sea. The trail of breath-bubbles fading, the water penetrates my nostrils and mouth and gradually fills my body until I am heavy and falling soundlessly, deeper into the endless blue. During Aseem’s first days in prison, I lull myself into sleep every night with a vision: I am swimming across the clear calm surface of the sea until I am far from the shore, and then, turning and lying on the water, my face to the sky, I let myself sink. ![]()
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